A mother’s worst fear would probably be losing her child or her baby getting hurt. That fear happened to me last Tuesday. Yes, we did start his 5th month with a bang! A bang in the head, that is. It all happened right under our noses, and our closed & sleeping eyes.
It was a typical day at the Santiago residence. Jacob woke up early morning for his breakfast of breast milk followed by the inevitable nap (we all fall back to sleep while breastfeeding). I think that was around 7:30 am. Often, Jacob would wake up before us and just roll around me and Osc.
An hour or so later, Oscar and I were awaken by a loud bang, as if a bowling ball was dropped on the floor. The sound vibrated a little inside our room. Immediately, Oscar and I got up and found our little boy… our handsome, cute and round little boy, on the floor, belly up, crying at the top of his lungs the moment he hit the floor. I too screamed. Screamed. Like I was on a roller coaster against my will. READ MORE AFTER THE JUMP!
Oscar got him. I stood next to them and was beginning to cry as well. I asked for Jacob to be handed over to me and for an cold pack from the fridge. As I was hugging him ever so tightly, he cried on my chest. Oh my god, trying to recall what happened is actually bringing me to tears! Well, I cried with him. Kept on saying sorry and that “Mommy is here…”
Oh, I forgot to mention. My loving husband shouted at me when Jacob fell, “What did you do?!” EXCUSE ME? I didn’t do anything, Mister! Later on he said he was so sleepy and it just came out of his mouth. Yeah right. To this day I really think he blames me that Jacob fell.
Anyway, when he calmed down a little, I latched him on to me while Oscar checked his head for any bumps or bruises. Luckily, there were none. I got on the phone with my Aunt who lives next door to us and asked for our relative’s number, who is a doctor and has a clinic nearby. I wanted to get him checked just in case. While I was doing this, Oscar was on the iPad researching online about babies falling off of beds, etc.
I’ve never felt so awake during the next few hours after his fall. I wanted to protect him more than ever. After hearing him cry like that and seeing the expression on his face, I don’t ever want to see him get hurt! What mother does anyway?
Later that afternoon, I brought him to my relative’s clinic. He is okay and he explained to me that at this age until he is about a year old, his skull is still sort of like rubber that won’t bruise up easily. Good to know. But I am definitely getting a Thud Guard after I get my paycheck.
We didn’t sleep well that night. We did turn in early than usual. I didn’t even work that night because I was with him the whole time. I find myself waking up in the middle of the night looking for him and worrying if he is okay. He is/was fine. He’s happily sleeping in his crib, probably have already forgotten what had happened earlier that day. I also felt Oscar jolting up from the bed looking for Jacob who usually sleeps next to us. Oh, parenthood! *sigh*
I know there are more bumps and bruises to come. He is in fact, only 5 months old. I know what you other Moms are thinking. “Wait until he’s walking…” “Oh just wait until he’s running and you can’t catch him!” AAAAAAHHHHH! I just want to tie him up next to me and be safe all the time!
I can only pray and ask God to protect Jacob from harm and evil every night. But I think he really was saved by his guardian angel. No bruises or bumps from the fall. We have hard wood floors and not a bump on his head and it was maybe a foot and a half fall. God is good and I know He is protecting my son from worse things in life.